Days

Today I woke up.
I wished happy birthday to my puppy. I started coffee brewing. Showered. Chopped veggies for the week. Cooked beautiful, delicious egg white omelets for myself and my 'work at home these days' husband. I did chores. Pet Thor the Mighty Barn Cat. The wind was cold and the sun was bright.

But, most importantly...

Today, I gave myself permission to stop pressuring myself about, well, EVERYTHING.

Yesterday was awful. Horrid. Gray and gloomy and downcast.
The weather was bad, too.

Yesterday, I fretted about the noticeable downtrend of my strength, lack of motivation to workout, inability to sit and finish writing F*CK It, I'm 50, increase in bouts of crying and sadness and missing my son and brother.

Today, I woke up and decided enough was enough.

No more worrying about NOT and CAN'T.
Less feeling badly about things that are different.
So many things are different now. So many things we cannot do, places we cannot go, and people we cannot see and hug and love in person.

Tomorrow I might feel awful again; but, I might NOT.
Tomorrow I might wake up, workout, shower, pet my dogs, groom my horse, scratch my fuzzy donkeys, take a walk in the sunshine, and finish drafting my novel.
Tomorrow, I might do none of that or all of it and a dozen other things, too.

Then again, Tomorrow I might not wake up at all.

So,

Today,

I wrote a blog post AND a list of things that make me giggle.
I snuggled my sweet one year old rat terrier.
I enjoyed old seasons of Grey's,
Walked my pasture, and scratched my grumpy old donk.

Yesterday is done.

Who knows about Tomorrow?

But, Today...today is mine to make the most of for as many breaths as I can manage.

Today, Yesterday, and Tomorrow. They are all mine to make the best of, Covid 19 or no.

Today, do what you can, understand what you can't, and simply be in the day.

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